w.h.y.

not cute. adorable.

roar

why, of all the time, must it hit me now? dont get me wrong, i'm not emo-ing here, just been running some stuff through my mind these few days, and somehow cant help but question the reliability of reality. alright enough of that shit.

i just wish that we can have some time with no direction or purpose, or even one day. just to set things right, just to live a carefree life, just to have no obligations. just O.N.E. day. see i'm reasonable. but nooooo, life will tell you not. oh well.

been busy of late, and at the way things look, probably will be for a while? pretty happy but somehow troubled. and it's unsettling, to say the least, that i find myself in such a spot. quite the contrary to what i usually see no?

when i was younger i had piano and swimming to keep me busy. then band in primary school, which i always enjoyed. then in secondary school it was band again, this time much more meaningful and accomplishing, in many ways i say. then poly, and it was syfc, which likewise, very accomplishing, and...... i dont know, just feels good. and now that i'm kinda done with that, i feel so lost. like really lost. and since i was lost, i discovered the two biggest regrets of my 18 years so far. and that really saddens me alot.

it's just way way way tooo frustrating, and somehow it just piles up and adds on. it's pretty hard to talk it out cos it'll be a really terrible one sided conversation, and well, if a person dominates in a conversation, it ain't one isn't it?

interesting enough, when i see the way people emo on their blogs, it's always just a few sentences of their wave of emotions, always spaced out throughout that post. but that'll never happen aye! WOOSH.

blogger's a pain now

i'm not allowed to upload an image. thanks blogger. today was fun, fun-er, delightful, then BOOM downwards spiral to shit. applaud applaud. entourage's the best remedy for insomnia. HELP ME!!!

the curious case of benjamin button is the most heart warming show i've ever seen. EVER. it starts off as distrubing, then it gets light hearted, comical, then sitting-at-the-edge-of-your-seat kinda feeling, then heart warming and then heart breaking. what a blast. got the book, and wow, comes with the movie's script. but i'm gonna tempt myself with it till the end of my papers.

life's short. really.

woosh

i'm really tired. shiok. this whole being-tired feeling's really great. feels great. and i'm typing rubbish. somehow? kinda? maybe? probably? possibly? sorta? yeah. fine.

anyone wanna join michael phelps? i want some cannabis. and a bong. and a lighter. and my phone's ringing.

conflicted

CLASSIC(:

somehow, i just cant seem to hide the fact that i do miss taking to the skies every week, even if i were to get scolded by the instructors, cos once you've tasted flight, somehow you'll never get enough. and caas is taking forever to send me my license. dang.

days have passed and things have happened. CNY's fun so far. very enjoyable. good break from school shites. therapeutic indeed. i'm kinda zonked out atm since it's 2.30am. i wanna sleep. i will go now. g'night readers( if there are any).

happy new year btw(:

AMERICAN HISTORY X

Happy Birthday my gay boy!

wednesday was another awesome day for soo many reasons, one of which was jeffrey HONG'S birthday. BSPFLS for 6 years babe! haha, so qd, jp, judith, yq and i were at wheelock place, then to isetan shaw centre. so qd purchased 2 bottles of champagne(one being a beringer), jq yq and gab shared a bottle of ice wine(heard it's pretty neat?) and i got a bottle of beringer and braown brothers. ALL these werre for the star gay boy! hahahah.



so we met them all and took a nice bus ride down to holland village, where we had reservations at crystal jade la mian xiao long bao for steamboat at 8.30. dinner was NOT BAD(urgh), but company was super fun! wahahah. dinner talk was hilarious that we all probably lost 4, 5 kg? yeah man. decided to all head to ju's place to hang out.


ARGH

while they made their way there, i left to meet a friend. after so long, so near yet pretty far? hahah, it was really great. (:


BSPFLs FTW!

then it was to ju's place for the chill-ing. AMERICAN HISTORY X is da bomb man! hahaha. i'm gonna hunt for it really soon. and jeff's cake's simply heavenly, and it better be for 80 bucks. haaha. OH! jeff's van got clamped. but the guard decided to be a saint by letting us off on no charges. AWESOME DAY.

ROAR

having family ties beats almost everything else in the world. as corny as it sounds, you have to agree that no matter what happens, no one is pretencious, hell no. no one NEEDS to be PRETENCIOUS.

and that's awesome. i love that. (:

playing with fire

israel has been bombarding the gaza strip for the past 2 weeks already, and many around the world are slamming the government for approving such "inhumane" acts. but my question to them is why wasnt anything said when israel was being hit by rockets fired by the hamas militant group in palestine for the past 2 or more years? they fired like the rockets were made in china(opps, wait a second, there were). imagine your neighbour using a handgun to shoot a room in your house where your wife and kids are, and when a bullet hits the bed post, you pull our your far superior shotgun and start blasting back. isnt that true? and now the talk is who actually are legitimate military targets.

one thing to take note is that the palestinians actually VOTED for the hamas to be in power. and yet they are crying foul when "civilians" are being killed there. though i strongly do not condone the act of bombing schools, but i want to believe that the israelis have to do what's necessary to show the hamas group that they mean business. so now, dont you think hamas has been playing with fire this whole time?


tell me i'm wrong. haha

the s word

uber therapeutic shopping today. i'm elated (: plus isetan's mens department is look crispy after the revamp. nice. no more tasteless layouts. so it was rayden's party (with lots of starch, soap and water!) which was the annual tradition. fun.

felt rather chirpy today? no idea why but i'm the new Benjamin A. Maths right michelle? i thought so Sarah Science.

and before i forget, catch these two albums in action. and for PETE'S SAKE, CATCH ENTOURAGE!!!!

All Hope Is Gone by Slipknot

Black Ice by ACDC

2009

2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR NO? so here we go again. a brand new year, with the SAME academic lifestyle. i'm praying it wont be the same for my social situation. please ?

so headed all around the east side yesterday helping mum and then it was to aunt linda's place, for some baking, back to michelle's place for dinner and hilarious kiddo comedies and back home. still fun. but i'm gonna be breaking out of my comfort zone pretty soon, though it probably is there for my own good.