Monday, May 21, 2012

who knew mee kias were that vulgar?

I'm embarrassed by my lack of motivation. Firstly, to come back to this space. Note I'm using "this space" and not this "blog", this "website", ma "crib" and what have you. I've come to respect the little confines of this space and the comfort it brings me somehow. Plus, I'm somehow glad that the readership here is kept to the minimum (except the loyal ones HAH). Secondly, the lack of motivation to what I've been working so hard for. Frankly, I need to be hit in the head. HARD. Okay, I meant it figuratively. However, the way my thoughts and emotions have swayed with regards to this puts my efforts and hard work to shame. I've certainly taken much for granted, and the worse thing is that I'm so comfortably aware of it. Perhaps the hell hole will do me good when I return.

The past 5 months have been more than comfortable. I mean, at least for my "paygrade" like many in there like to say. But I'm glad I've had time to think and plan, with the help of a very, very genuine mentor. Life really isn't that long. The fact that the hipsters go "I'm gonna live my life as each day comes" just makes it all the more worrying. I mean, we live somehow to work, which is ironic but true. So don't you think you should make good use of this "work" and turn it into something that you thoroughly enjoy, something you get to practice and get so good at it that it becomes a hobby? In my humble opinion, I would think that would be the ideal career (we should refrain from the word job no?). Thus, I would really encourage everyone out there to find something you  love and are so passionate about, pursue whatever it may be, be good at it, and enjoy the process of it all. Cos at the end of the day, you are only as happy as you make yourself out to be. It may not pay you that well, it may not buy you a luxurious sea facing condo, and it may not get you the latest flashy sports car, but what it will get you is happiness. If it doesn't make you happy, you will need to rethink your priorities.... and probably what in the world you're exactly passionate about.

Frankly, I'm probably gonna be an irony of this. HAH