w.h.y.

not cute. adorable.

roar

why, of all the time, must it hit me now? dont get me wrong, i'm not emo-ing here, just been running some stuff through my mind these few days, and somehow cant help but question the reliability of reality. alright enough of that shit.

i just wish that we can have some time with no direction or purpose, or even one day. just to set things right, just to live a carefree life, just to have no obligations. just O.N.E. day. see i'm reasonable. but nooooo, life will tell you not. oh well.

been busy of late, and at the way things look, probably will be for a while? pretty happy but somehow troubled. and it's unsettling, to say the least, that i find myself in such a spot. quite the contrary to what i usually see no?

when i was younger i had piano and swimming to keep me busy. then band in primary school, which i always enjoyed. then in secondary school it was band again, this time much more meaningful and accomplishing, in many ways i say. then poly, and it was syfc, which likewise, very accomplishing, and...... i dont know, just feels good. and now that i'm kinda done with that, i feel so lost. like really lost. and since i was lost, i discovered the two biggest regrets of my 18 years so far. and that really saddens me alot.

it's just way way way tooo frustrating, and somehow it just piles up and adds on. it's pretty hard to talk it out cos it'll be a really terrible one sided conversation, and well, if a person dominates in a conversation, it ain't one isn't it?

interesting enough, when i see the way people emo on their blogs, it's always just a few sentences of their wave of emotions, always spaced out throughout that post. but that'll never happen aye! WOOSH.